Waiting for an invitation?

3:04am: I got two things.
Everything I can think of seems right. Not like Tigers on paper right, I mean Tigers going 4-2 right. I am even holding back from the "so how come I feel something's not right" jab. That statement don't fit, yo. But I am scared. How can you head into something so unexpected and thrilling, but still feel like you're doing something wrong? I'll tell ya why - fucking baggage. I refuse to let that change the way I do my business. Even though the future may be unsure, if I were to make a list, the reasons for continuation would be overwhelming. I like this girl. So, middle finger to you, JB.

Politics. Yeah, I still think about them sometimes. You know what I like about Obama? It's that he seems to really believe what he says. You know what I hate about politics? It's that in order to get elected, a politician must centralize and generalize what he/she believes. Let's be frank here. Not Frank, but seriously frank. If people say what they believe, they may inspire a great amount of people. But there will always be those who are turned off by one political position or another. And no matter what anyone says, people recognize sincerity, and are really influenced by it if a politician seems serious about a particular issue. Obama will have his followers based on his stances, and they will be devoted because, for sure, he has an incredible charisma and evident honesty about him. But the fact is, if you don't agree with the professed politics of a person, you will not vote for him. That's where we're at in America. There are soooo many political gradations (from liberal to conservative), with so many variances, yet there are only two competing political parties. Until there is an honest attempt at political diversification, no honest politicians will be "electable".

Okay, I'll go to bed.

1:27am: i didn't know
i've been watching a lot of movies lately. i haven't seen platoon since i was little, and just caught it on skinemax. i knew charlie sheen was in it. willem dafoe i sort of remembered. but john c. mcginley? dr. cox from scrubs? he was in "the shit"? that's awesome, joanna.

1:43am: A few of my favorite things
I made this up tonight out of boredom - argue with me if you'd like, or do your own!

Tops tops tops (my favorite games, music, movies, books etc.)

Top 35 songs:

35. Sunny Day Real Estate - Iscarabaid - off LP2
34. Smashing Pumpkins - Soothe - off Pisces Iscariot
33. The Shins - The Past and Pending - off Chutes Too Narrow
32. Treble Charger - Ever She Flows - off not sure...
31. Aloha - Heading East - off That's Your Fire
30. Sonic Youth - Unwind - off Washing Machine
29. Animal Collective - Banshee Beat - off Feels
28. Oh My God - Action - off Action Album
27. Beach Boys - Wouldn't It Be Nice - off Pet Sounds
26. Kanye West - Good Morning - off Graduation (Token Black? Nah, just a good song)
25. Beck - Ramshackle - off Odelay
24. Beulah - When Your Heartstrings Break - off When Your Heartstrings Break
23. Cake - Mexico - off Prolonging the Magic
22. Spoon - The Way We Get By - off Kill the Moonlight
21. Cornelius - Music - Sensuous
20. Dismemberment Plan - Life of Possibilities - off Emergency and I
19. Elliot Smith - No name #3 - off Good Will Hunting
18. Jon Brion - Eternal Sunshine Theme - obvious
17. The Flaming Lips - Vaseline - off Transmissions
16. Pinback - Some Voices - off Some Voices EP
15. Pavement - Stop Breathin - off Crooked Rain (I think)
14. Sonic Youth - Skip Tracer - off Washing Machine
13. Tribe Called Quest - Oh My God - not sure?
12. Nada Surf - Blizzard of 77 - off Let Go
11. Neil Young - Ohio - off So Far
10. The Cardigans - Lovefool - off Gran Turismo (I think)
9. Blind Melon - No Rain - hm, uh...
8. Pinback - Boo - off Blue Screen Life
7. Radiohead - Idioteque - off Kid A
6. Beck - Loser - off Mellow Gold
5. Aloha - Ferocious Love - off That's Your Fire
4. Grandaddy - The Crystal Lake - off Sophtware Slump
3. Air - Run - off Talkie Walkie
2. Pinback - Loro - off S/T
1. Radiohead - Paranoid Android - off Ok Computer

Top 30 video games:

(These are my favorites anyway) There's probably only one person on my livejournal that could possibly have anything to say about this list - feel free to argue with me! Let's get nerdy...

30. MLB 07: The Show (PS2)
29. Marble Madness (NES)
28. Excitebike (NES)
27. Castlevania (NES)
26. Tetris (NES)
25. Bubble Bobble (NES)
24. Streets of Rage 2 (Sega Genesis)
23. Mortal Kombat (SNES)
22. Rampage (Arcade)
21. Golden Tee (Arcade)
20. Mike Tyson's Punchout (NES)
19. NHL 94 (Sega Genesis)
18. Tombraider (PS)
17. Dr. Mario (NES)
16. Grand Theft Auto 3 (PS2)
15. Mario Kart (Gamecube)
14. Mario Tennis (Gamecube)
13. Hot Shots Golf 3 (PS2)
12. Gran Turismo 3 (PS2)
11. Madden 08 (PS2)
10. Command & Conquer: Red Alert (PS)
9. Syphon Filter (PS)
8. Contra (NES)
7. RBI Baseball (NES)
6. Half Life 2 (PC)
5. Call of Duty 4 (XBOX 360)
4. NBA Jam (Arcade)
3. Tecmo Bowl (NES)
2. Resident Evil 2 (PS)
1. Super Mario 3 (NES)

Super Mario 3 is still amazing every time I play it. Mario 1 is a classic, but I don't have the attachment to it that you would expect from it being the original. Mario 2 is not on here because it wasn't a good game.

A few games are surely missing: mega man, sonic the hedgehog, halo, doom, probably a lot of XBox and SNES titles etc. but in all honesty, i never got into those games/didn't have the right system or enough ram to run them when they were hip, so oh well.

I also did not include Atari because i can't really seperate the games in my head. They were all fun, but the atari's range was obviously limited. Comparing them even to Nintendo games is hard for me.

Top 25 movies:

25. National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation - every Xmas, like 10 times
24. Home Alone - every Xmas, like 11 times
23. 28 Days Later - Danny Boyle, yeah
22. The Saint - not even sure why
21. The Quick and the Dead - Cheesy as all hell, but sooo cool
20. Tombstone - Val Kilmer in his best role ever (I'm ya huckleberry)
19. Fight Club - i get the point, we're too materialistic (tyler durden is f'in cool though)
18. Willow - wait, this is Val Kimer's best role (He stole our blackroot!)
17. The Excorcist - still scary this many years later
16. The Princess Bride - "Mehwedge"
15. Knocked Up - man comedy, except kind of smart
14. Rounders - "p'ay that m'an his m'oney"
13. Groundhog Day - Bill Murray living the same day over and over
12. Borat - played out at this point, sure, but I don't usually laugh this hard at movies
11. Dumb and Dumber - I've watched this more times than any other movie
10. 12 Monkeys - I love Bruce Willis in this movie
9. The Shawshank Redemption - Morgan Freeman for president (didn't he play one at some point?)
8. Forrest Gump - could/should be higher, but it really is too long for my taste
7. Lost in Translation - only because of the opening scene
6. Saved - not just for teens, lotta heart and funny
5. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind - Jim Carrey as a serious actor (worked just this once)
4. The Usual Suspects - KAISER SOSE!
3. Star Wars IV
2. Star Wars VI
1. Star Wars V

Who knew the original trilogy be representin my top 3? As it turns out, I couldn't find a movie to put ahead of any of them. Probably has something to do with Leia. I understand that there are some serious classics missing here (Silence of the Lambs, American Beauty, Pulp Fiction, etc.) but the above 25 are movies that for some reason I can watch over and over.

Top 15 TV shows:

15. Insomniac with Dave Attell
14. Star Trek: The Next Generation
13. Star Trek
12. King of the Hill
11. The Daily Show
10. Colbert Report
9. South Park
8. The Office
7. Saturday Night Live
6. Aqua Teen Hunger Force
5. The Simpsons
4. Chappelle's Show
3. Seinfeld
2. Scrubs
1. Home Movies

Top 10 books:

I read, like all the time. I have a huge library. Blah blah blah.

10. The Cat's Pajamas by Ray Bradbury
9. The Manly Art by Elliot Gorn
8. Fast Food Nation by Eric Schlosser
7. The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand
6. Thank You For Smoking by Christopher Buckley
5. One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest by Ken Kesey
4. Fahrenheit 454 by Ray Bradbury
3. The Beach by Alex Garland
2. 1984 by George Orwell
1. Out of the Silent Planet by C.S. Lewis


A couple of these books were turned into good movies too. One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, specifically is a favorite of mine. The Beach in book form is waaay better than the movie, although after reading it, I found I kinda liked the movie (I found it boring before). Fast Food Nation made me consider being a vegetarian. I think C.S. Lewis is just plain amazing, and for some reason Out of the Silent Planet is my favorite.

So that's it. Anyone still reading this must be more bored than I am, which is crazy.

I hate winter. I can't wait til people start moving around again.

G'night ol' livejournal.

12:29am: i had to record it here, so as not to forget... this was the best super bowl i've ever seen. eli manning is my new favorite player. oh yeah, and i lost a couple of bets... an upset like that is worth it though!

12:29am: BARS and PARTIES, if you drink that is
if you're in the holly area on the 23rd, come to the bottom's up across from mt. holly for some beers. call me if you don't know where that is.

on new years, if you're in the kalamazoo area, come to my house for a "bangin" party. really, my roommates andy searl and ashley kloote are having it, cause i'll be at work. but i'm sure i'll get out at some ungodly hour and be looking for some semi-conscious people to get wahasted with.

see you then!

2:03pm: every girl ever
http://www.craigslist.org/about/best/phi/471580402.html

2:11am: buh bye kbrau and more
people should really know where they stand by 30. if not, man, that sucks. might as well stop trying. i hope i'm done trying too hard by then. also, it's too bad kraftbrau's done, i'll miss it. the memories are quite good enough for me though. they never tried too hard, but always did well.

bought a new phone the other day, should get in by tuesday. beth, if you read this, thanks for the offer of chargerless phones... you are a great nice person. but i decided to just buy one. oh well. i'll have "blue tooth," so look out for that.

damn, i got nothing, but i am bored, so if anyone wants to im, i'm on that aol instant messenger service thing. i mean, i got no phone man. alright. last chance. aaaand... fine bye!!!!

2:30am: my celly
anybody got a "gsm" cell phone they're not using that they want to give/sell to me? i lost my phone, and from what i hear, i can just put a new sim card into any "gsm" phone. i don't really understand what gsm is, but apparently, all verizon and atnt/cingular phones fall into this category... so, if you have a nokia/motorola/lg cell phone that you don't know how to throw away (cause i think they are toxic to mother earth), holla at me through my only form of communication. the internet.
lovemakin,
josh

12:19am: been a while? doesn't matter... it's livejournal.
don't i have anything at all to say? i'm glad i have my music stuff setup again... i need to feel something. anybody got a cure for the apath-eties?

8:57pm: need a mattress or even just a boxspring?
we have a nice queen size box spring that won't fit in our house... we're using the queen size mattress (we were able to just squeeze it in), but the box spring is currently homeless... if you are sleeping with a mattress on the floor, stop doin it! it's bad for your spine! also, we have a full size mattress to put on top of the boxspring in case you are currently sleeping on a couch or something... let me know asap!!!

7:43pm: and it only took a few years...
i'm a college graduate! awesome! now what?

9:25pm: i need a place to live this summer!
does anyone have a room they would want to rent out for cheap? i am subleasing my 390 per month apt. to some guy and i want to find a cheap place to store my stuff/sleep a few nights per month (literally)... i sleep at my girlfriend's apt, so it would be like i'm not even there... you would basically have one less room to throw your garbage in... maybe you want to move home for the summer? well then i could sublease for you... live with annoying people? have no fear, i'll live with them for you! so yeah, if anyone actually reads this, send me a message or whatever, asap!

2:00pm: matter of fact
you know, people walking on campus are always on their cell phones. sometimes i don't think they are actually talking to anyone. or the person they're on the phone with is not listening. that's more likely.

also, poker is not a real job and i will tell you why. i played last week and got killed by the wayner and 5 others, not just cause he played well, but because i got 7/2 offsuit way too much. last night, i killed wayner and 10 other people and won tons of money. the only real difference was that i kept getting pocket pairs and/or winning on the river. wayne says i had more confidence, but that isn't hard when you keep getting good cards. luck is a weird thing like that - i can't imagine putting too much trust/money into it. but for 10 bucks once or twice a week, it's fun.

recently i've been really into tortoise... if anyone has any cds, i'd love to borrow one.

oh yeah, and... portland/seattle, here i come! (insert picture of mt. hood)

does anyone know the html for that?

5:14pm: bury gerudo in the backyard
in case you haven't heard and happen to care, our last show ever is december 16... then eric will go to seattle, andy will go back down to his room, wayne will remain sassy behind the fourth coast counter, and i will go into full winter hibernation mode... word.

8:30pm: dear hollywood,
do you hold nothing sacred? jesus, i can already feel the jingoism sweeping over the audience as it "remembers the events of 9/11"... go to hell, oliver stone.

10:25am: message to all tiger's fans
sunday, july 23rd at 1:05 pm

that's the day that kzooers will head to comerica park in detroit to wave obnoxious signs, curse at the oakland A's, and drink 8 dollar beers! so far it's me, myself and i going... if you're not on this list, send me a message to tell me that you would like to join us... for real!

1:50am: hellraiser, the grudge, hellraiser II, they
you know, horror movies always come with the little snippet from "somesuch review weekly" (which you know probably doesn't exist) and it always says "don't watch it alone!"
that's usually bullshit, but seriously, don't watch "they" alone... wes craven made me poop my pants and now i'm not going to be able to sleep... i wish amos and amy would come home...

9:20pm: less happy
um, so all the cds i once owned are gone now... if you see someone hockin cds on the street, tell em i said hey... if you aren't busy, please make me a mix cd

7:39pm: clubfusa: it's called telling a TRUE story... try it sometime!
sometimes when amos and amy cook a large meal together i get jealous... whenever i feel this way, i usually just go in the bathroom and shave my crotch, careful to save all the clippings... then when that adorable couple is not looking, i drop the pubies into the delicious meal, whether it be a stew or a stirfry... whatever! when it is finished, we all sit down and have a nice meal together... i so love eating my disconnected hair (especially from my privates!) - and although they don't know it, so do amos and amy... bon apetit!

8:28pm: outlawry
there are certain things you can only know when you've been to college... or served in the army... or been in love... but there's certain things that you can only know when you haven't done those things... because it's easy to forget the feelings you had prior to a new experience... god bless the children, for they don't even know... heh

12:48am: goo
i realized today that i don't look down on people that have a naive view of the world... i'm completely jealous... what could be better than being completely oblivious to your surroundings? to ignore world events, to know more about tv and movie characters and athletes than you do about your friends and family... to never evaluate yourself and your actions... to join a group and blindly follow their protocol... we all do this to an extent... i just wish i wasn't aware of my actions... i guess that's what drives a lot of people i know to drink to death... and do whatever drugs are hot topic or old hat... whatever... i'm ill anyway... i shouldn'a speak...

4:58pm: but he'd be a team player!
http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/page2/story?page=granderson/060116

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"If the guy who does the hiring openly discriminates, why should the employees be expected to be socially responsible? If you're going to jump on a young guy for being hostile about showering next to a gay guy, then jump on the old guy for creating the atmosphere where that hostility is acceptable. There is a chance that Miller nixed the movie because he hates Heath Ledger and, in fact, his franchise would warmly welcome an openly gay player or coach or concession stand worker. But personally, I think his 19-17 Jazz have a better chance of winning the NBA championship. That's just me."

I'm glad that the sports world (writers anyway) is becoming more and more accepting of liberal values (even if the players, owners, coaches and fans are slow to follow)... it's comforting to read this article, even though i know he's going to get hatemail for writing it...

3:30am: the noises of my stomach: not right
tonight was fun... i'm glad i didn't stay in andy's house...
now i'm home... i've never found my roommates latenight bedroom flirting to be annoying... only on new years is that possible...

the sound of music soothes "wounds"... faces make the "healing" more difficult... the quotes mean that i know i'm not really hurting... i'm not in fucking sub-saharan africa... i'm just alone in kalamazoo... so it's cool i spose...

7:25pm: safe partying
i usually work on new years... but i don't have a job this year... so if you need a ride tonight, i'll be sober... by "you", i don't mean someone in particular... i mean, anyone that doesn't suck... also, don't contact me if you are evil. meanwhile, i will be in andy's house, playing trent's playstation... it's a good thing for friends, or else new years would be a crappy holiday!s

it's one hour later and i realize now how lame that entry was... don't count on me tonight.

11:29pm: it's easy... 94, 69, 75 and you're there...
a winter poem for those that think this is the coolest thing to do when you're sitting inside, feeling all weird about yourself/life, wanting to go outside and lay in grass but only seeing white hell outside...

i'm a ball, rolled good and plenty
landed same side one time too many
let me show you: how i defy the laws
as you bat at me, with your little paws

tell me stories so you'll draw me nearer
look intently, absorbed into my ear
nod my head, but i won't say something
tell me things, though you tell me nothing

new to a game that's as old as time
bet you're thinking these next two lines will rhyme
something something dumb
something now i'll drink some rum
woot da doot wat da doot doot doot